Wednesday, June 22, 2016


Eathan is 6 yo and has started throwing temper tantrums like he's Jacobs age which is 2 yo. Eathan is the middle child so I'm not really sure if this is part if that middle child syndrome I've heard about or just another phase but I'm at the end of my patience rope. Especially now that he's throwing toys and slamming his bedroom door. I've tried everything and now I'm asking for help or any new ideas to try out.

Thursday, June 16, 2016

Motivation Thursday

So most people need motivation on a Monday to begin their work week, I needed mine today.

Get knocked down 7 times get up 8.

Monday, June 13, 2016

Started another blog

A couple weeks ago I made the decision to get fit and healthy again. So iI also decided to make another blog for just that journey. Who knows maybe I'll inspire someone else and meet people who can inspire and help me as well. So if you want to check it out you can here:

Friday, June 10, 2016

RED Friday and some thoughts

Today is Friday which makes it RED Friday. RED Friday is for our service men and women who are still deployed but are definitely not forgotten. Until they all come home we will remember and pray for them. We as a nation should stand behind the people who make it possible for us to have our freedoms. We should also work to ensure that the services they need when they come home are more readily available to them because they deserve to be treated better.

I went MIA yesterday due to feeling like a burden and not wanting to bother anyone. Outside of my family I talk to 2 people and I feel like those 2 people are tired of talking to me. So since I'm going thru some shit I decided to hermit myself into my house away from everyone except my kids. Its not like they exactly missed talking to me anyways. Sometimes I wonder if I walked off the planet how long it would take anyone to notice I was gone. 

But that's all I have for now. I hope yall enjoy your weekend! 

Tuesday, June 7, 2016


Yesterday I shared how I'd been having some small anxiety attacks and had a much larger one at work and how I use music to cope. A couple people asked me about different kinds of anxiety attacks. Yes there are people who have anxiety attacks where they are crying and also might rock back and forth either separately or at the same time. There's mine where I tend to just shut down and appear zoned out. There's ones where the person just stop talking. What I'm saying is no ones is the same but all should be taken seriously. 

I have had it pointed out to me that when I'm particularly anxious about something I'll bite my nails and pick at my lips. I've been so anxious before that I've picked my lips til they bled. Its not a good thing and doesn't look particularly attractive either.

There are different coping skills for everyone the key is to just find yours. And to remember that just because you have anxiety or anything else you are still a great person with so much to offer the world.

Monday, June 6, 2016

Why music is important to me

Not many people know this about me but for about the past 6 years I've had depression and anxiety. Its not everyday and can be totally random. I could be having fun doing something and then bam anxiety attack or I'll just wake up depressed with no reason as to why. 

I've tried meds, they make me a zombie. I've tried natural remedies and that was one of the reasons I started this blog in the first place. What I have found that works for me is music. I love music whether it be just listening, playing (I play the violin) or watching videos. Music makes me feel and makes me happy.

Music especially helps since not all my anxiety attacks are "classic" looking. I usually don't rock back and forth or cry. Most of the time I'll just stare blankly in space. Luckily I've only had one this year so far but it was out of the blue while I was at work and knocked me on my ass. One minute I was walking out of a residents room the next I couldn't breathe, was sitting on the floor, staring off into god knows what and uncontrollably crying. I've only cried during 2 other attacks. 

I listen to all types of music. Mostly country but everything else as well. Here are some YouTube suggestions and the ones I use when I get "that feeling". Thomas Rhett, Brantley Gilbert, Jacob John, Sam Hunt, Imagine Dragons, Meghan Trainor, Pink, Eminem, John Mellancamp, Keith Urban, Miranda Lambert, Sugar land or Jennifer Nettles, Florida Georgia Line, Brett Eldridge, D.N.C.E, Skrizzly Adams.

I hope this helps someone else out there and if anyone ever has any questions or needs someone to talk to I'm always here.