Tuesday, July 9, 2013
Am I wrong?
Does it make me a bad person that when we move I would rather not go to work? I have been working since I was 14 with literally maybe a 1 1/2 years off total due to an accident that broke my back and took my life 4 times and the births of my children. I have missed all the firsts with my daughter who is my oldest. She has NF1 so all firsts with her were extra special as it took her so much longer and she had to put so much more effort into doing everything and still does. I have almost missed all the firsts with my son, I was pregnant with him when I was in LPN school, graduated 7 weeks after having him and went to work a week after graduation and have not stopped since. I don't want to work anymore, I want to be able to enjoy my kids and my husband. I want to be the mom that has fresh baked goodies on a daily basis and dinners aren't just thrown together but are thought out and healthy. If something happens to my kids I don't want to worry about losing my job if I have to leave work. Growing up my mom was the stay at home mom and until I had kids I did not realize how lucky she was. As the teenager she was always there and I thought it was pain because I couldn't get anything past her. Now I realize how much I want that. I would give up anything to be able to stay at home with my kids once we move. I am willing to work from home because I wouldn't have to give up a whole lot with my kids and I would stop missing out on everything and having to schedule my daughters doctors appointments around my work schedule so that I don't have to take a lot of time off. I want to be a SAHM/WAHM. Now the big question is how am I going to accomplish this?